My heart breaks for you Katie. As we grow up through childhood we learn lessons that kids are cruel and the world can be cruel and that life isn't fair, but that we always can rely on ourselves. Unfortunately you were never able to rely on your physical self, so you were always forced to make your mind "babysit" your body. Ultimately from the heartbreak in your voice, your brain,your heart and your soul are sick of babysitting some uncontrollable little brat of a body. As someone who is married to an extremely self deprecating wonderful person who is the way she is due to things that she could not control, I certainly understand where you're coming from. Just know that you are by far your harshest critic and that no matter how mad you get at your body, the only part that feels the scorn is your soul. Remember that you have a plethora of able bodies that love and care about you and will be there whenever you need us. Chance
My heart breaks for you Katie. As we grow up through childhood we learn lessons that kids are cruel and the world can be cruel and that life isn't fair, but that we always can rely on ourselves. Unfortunately you were never able to rely on your physical self, so you were always forced to make your mind "babysit" your body. Ultimately from the heartbreak in your voice, your brain,your heart and your soul are sick of babysitting some uncontrollable little brat of a body. As someone who is married to an extremely self deprecating wonderful person who is the way she is due to things that she could not control, I certainly understand where you're coming from. Just know that you are by far your harshest critic and that no matter how mad you get at your body, the only part that feels the scorn is your soul. Remember that you have a plethora of able bodies that love and care about you and will be there whenever you need us.
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